The BEEMBO Entry

It has been exactly a year since my life flipped 180.... So much has changed this year. So unfamiliar with everything. Been living in 2 countries within the year. Both unfamiliar places to me. Yes, I mean both the country I grew up in and also the country I went to further my studies.  There were lots of downs compared to ups (saw a stranger die right before my eyes and etc). Now I am back in Malaysia ( for 5 months now), I am still getting use to the everything again. In away I feel like it's high school all over again (the bad part of high school).

Enough with all the self pity.

There are some nice things that happen. I got myself a job within a month since I got back, I think that's really good. Got to meet some nice people. Got much much closer to several friends. Figured that I'm much stronger than I thought I was ( both emotionally and physically). I am not as dumb as I thought I was, but still quite dumb.

Then there are several things that I'm not sure if it's good or bad, the grey area I presume. I realise I cannot control what my mind think, it will wonder off at areas I don't want it to go. Sometimes it wonders off so far that I dream of it. Sometimes the sweetest dreams, sometimes nightmares ( I don't think I make much sense here). The other thing I found out is that I'm quite independent, don't know if that is good. Cos I know a guy that dump the girl cos she's too independent. My love life going down the drain, my mom thinks it's good so I could focus on my career and be more independent. Hmmm, she did tell me not to get married at all..   The other thing I realise this year and am proud to say it out loud, being IGNORANT is good in a way. Somethings are best to stay ignorant.